Uneasy.
To be honest, this isn't easy. Whenever I think of you, what you might be doing, and everything, I have to tell myself, 'It doesn't matter anymore'. I don't know if you have already find someone else. Well... Sometimes its good not to know things. It's not easy, to ignore everything we did before. I don't know how do you make it. Maybe it's easy for you, because I don't matter to you. These days, I figured out something. This is something I afraid the most. You had the gift, you left. Wow, now I know. It's the gift that connect us together. Without it, we're nothing. When I decided to spend the $200 on you, I thought a lot. Will everything end after giving out this? Yes, maybe that's really not much to you. Well... it can be papers for me, too. But isn't it awkward? Before you got it, whenever I was mad with you, you will talk to me. Let's ignore what you said, but as least you cared. Even just that little bit, but you do. Look at what is happening now? Those things you said that night really hurts me. It hurts fucking much. To tell the truth, I'm still waiting, for you to come and talk to me. I know it's ridiculous. But I know, someday I will just stop waiting.
That 'someday', I will not give a single fuck on you. But remember, I never betrayed you, and I was there for you. Ignored my family, given up everything at that time, staying by your side. The 'me', that once had my phone on 24/7 for you, that picked up your phone at 4a.m when no one else would, that stayed up till 3 a.m everyday, just to give you a surprise, and everything, will eventually get you off my mind. I have to move on, I don't want to be yours anymore. I'm for myself now. I want my heart, my soul back. Thank you, you taught me not to give hope on anyone, even they acted to be so close with you. It's just close, close enough that everything seem to be so perfectly easy. Good luck for you school offer outcome.
Uneasy.
To be honest, this isn't easy. Whenever I think of you, what you might be doing, and everything, I have to tell myself, 'It doesn't matter anymore'. I don't know if you have already find someone else. Well... Sometimes its good not to know things. It's not easy, to ignore everything we did before. I don't know how do you make it. Maybe it's easy for you, because I don't matter to you. These days, I figured out something. This is something I afraid the most. You had the gift, you left. Wow, now I know. It's the gift that connect us together. Without it, we're nothing. When I decided to spend the $200 on you, I thought a lot. Will everything end after giving out this? Yes, maybe that's really not much to you. Well... it can be papers for me, too. But isn't it awkward? Before you got it, whenever I was mad with you, you will talk to me. Let's ignore what you said, but as least you cared. Even just that little bit, but you do. Look at what is happening now? Those things you said that night really hurts me. It hurts fucking much. To tell the truth, I'm still waiting, for you to come and talk to me. I know it's ridiculous. But I know, someday I will just stop waiting.
That 'someday', I will not give a single fuck on you. But remember, I never betrayed you, and I was there for you. Ignored my family, given up everything at that time, staying by your side. The 'me', that once had my phone on 24/7 for you, that picked up your phone at 4a.m when no one else would, that stayed up till 3 a.m everyday, just to give you a surprise, and everything, will eventually get you off my mind. I have to move on, I don't want to be yours anymore. I'm for myself now. I want my heart, my soul back. Thank you, you taught me not to give hope on anyone, even they acted to be so close with you. It's just close, close enough that everything seem to be so perfectly easy. Good luck for you school offer outcome.
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Meet me the webmistress peeps!
Oh hey! I see you clicked to see my profile. ;) Since you cared to know more about me, okay let's go!
I'm born on 1st of November in the year of 1997 in Malaysia.
My hometown is Penang but i'm currently in Johor, Malaysia.
I now study in a school in Singapore.
I hate: feeling lonely, being ditched, bad days, people who feel way too good about themselves.
I love: JUSTIN BIEBER, photography, band, music, outings, etc (way too much).
Proud to be a belieber. <3
