Exams are finally over today. To be honest I can't wait for script checking. Just get it done instead of worrying about the results all the time. (:
Finally had fun today.


My title is stupid and pointless and I don't care.
Few days ago we celebrated Brina's belated birthday.
Many nice photos. Just gonna put some of them (because I'm lazy).



















Now holiday is almost over. I haven't touch any of my homework because I think I ate some poisonous mushrooms and been sick for a few days. Now I'm fine. Because scumbag body decided to get well right on the day when holiday ends. -.- SERIOUSLY. Okay. I still love holidays. I love band practices during the holiday much more than the normal ones.... About 2 more months and we're temporary free!


Feel like it's all back again. Why am I feeling all tired again? Why isn't everything staying as easy as it used to be? Why can't it always be easy? Why do I still wonder about the person that will never look back? And why do you always push me away.. ?
Maybe because I'm annoying. Yeah. Maybe I'm never good enough for someone to appreciate. Life is hard. To be very honest, it had never been as easy as I thought. I'm tired of being all positive. I thought I'm a positive person but the truth is, I'm not. I never was, and I might never be. Things go wrong all the time, I just chose to ignore them. Maybe that's the right thing to do. Maybe I forgot how to be happy. Maybe I pushed people away so soon after they're close to me, so they won't have the chance to push me away.
Sometimes I sit down and wonder, why are life so easy for some others? Why do they have a perfect life not even having the need to try? Why am I the way I am? ... I have so many questions in my head now and I might never get the answers. I know, asking life to be fair to you because you're fair, is like asking a lion not to eat you because you didn't eat it.
I know it's stupid, I know I have to try very hard, too hard that's impossible to be done by a lazy and stupid person like me.



It's Monday again. ): NOOOOO.
Last week had been a tough week. Too many things going wrong at once. Sigh. Glad it had passed though. (: I always have problem sleeping on a Sunday night. It's kinda driving me crazy. Maybe that's why we all hate Monday, as we will all be tired as hell.
Soon it will be the end of year exam. Damn, hell is coming back to us. Really should get my shits together. Failed MANY tests this year, and it's not good. Tsk.



“有些人不值得你的时间，该放的放，该走的走”
刚刚，某人告诉了我那句话。没错，有些人真的不值得。大家都在前方，而我留着干什么？
虽然嘴上说我没有你，我只有我。但心里真的是这样的吗？其实我自己也不知道。
如果真的放下了，为什么还在乎那么多？
如果真的放下了，为什么还不敢看你的fb，也不敢看你的instagram？
如果真的放下了，为什么每次回家的时候还会看着你给我的每一样东西，想念曾经拥有的一切？
如果真的放下了，为什么需要这么辛苦的想逃避？
如果真的放下了，这一切都没必要。
我不是放下，我只是在逃避。
如果可以逃避一辈子，那多好？
可惜，不可以。
为何要挂念一个不会回头的你？
－何苦呢？－
没有你，多好？



Hi, I think you know who you are okay? Don't really want to mention it here. I'm not going to say sorry here, okay? Okay. I didn't feel that it's my fault to have someone that always wants to sleep while talking to me.
However, it's kinda my fault to say that I "don't want" you. Fine, I really don't want you. But I just can't push you away like you didn't exist right? I mean.. I will still miss you a lot and things like that. So no matter how much my brain wants to push you away, some part of me will still believe that it will be okay after all. Maybe it won't work every time, maybe this time you will really think it's over, and I don't know if it's over or not. I would still like to try even a lil bit because I appreciate you and I still believe in what you said when I was about to be gone in your life. I still believe that we will have our '4 years and counting' and I can't wait to write that sentence on my network.

Thanks for reading until here because some of my words might be kinda mean. But trust me, I didn't mean anything bad here.



It's 2 am now. Just done changing my blogskin. (:
MTDC didn't went very well today. Tested on scale. Which I sucked at. And someone's words really pissed me off. But I can't be. It's really my fault to get the thing wrong. It just immediately changed my impression about him and it only showed that what comes out from his mouth was never filtered by his brain.
Yes, I suck because of extremely lack of practice. I know. I might even be the worst player there. Thanks to him though. I'm gonna squeeze my time out for drum techniques and scales now, because I know I suck and I don't want to be a disgrace.
Okay off that crappy topic.
//
Other than that, life had been kinda good to me lately. Don't ask me why. It's just getting so much better with them around. Thanks. (:

Exams are finally over today. To be honest I can't wait for script checking. Just get it done instead of worrying about the results all the time. (:
Finally had fun today.


My title is stupid and pointless and I don't care.
Few days ago we celebrated Brina's belated birthday.
Many nice photos. Just gonna put some of them (because I'm lazy).



















Now holiday is almost over. I haven't touch any of my homework because I think I ate some poisonous mushrooms and been sick for a few days. Now I'm fine. Because scumbag body decided to get well right on the day when holiday ends. -.- SERIOUSLY. Okay. I still love holidays. I love band practices during the holiday much more than the normal ones.... About 2 more months and we're temporary free!


Feel like it's all back again. Why am I feeling all tired again? Why isn't everything staying as easy as it used to be? Why can't it always be easy? Why do I still wonder about the person that will never look back? And why do you always push me away.. ?
Maybe because I'm annoying. Yeah. Maybe I'm never good enough for someone to appreciate. Life is hard. To be very honest, it had never been as easy as I thought. I'm tired of being all positive. I thought I'm a positive person but the truth is, I'm not. I never was, and I might never be. Things go wrong all the time, I just chose to ignore them. Maybe that's the right thing to do. Maybe I forgot how to be happy. Maybe I pushed people away so soon after they're close to me, so they won't have the chance to push me away.
Sometimes I sit down and wonder, why are life so easy for some others? Why do they have a perfect life not even having the need to try? Why am I the way I am? ... I have so many questions in my head now and I might never get the answers. I know, asking life to be fair to you because you're fair, is like asking a lion not to eat you because you didn't eat it.
I know it's stupid, I know I have to try very hard, too hard that's impossible to be done by a lazy and stupid person like me.



It's Monday again. ): NOOOOO.
Last week had been a tough week. Too many things going wrong at once. Sigh. Glad it had passed though. (: I always have problem sleeping on a Sunday night. It's kinda driving me crazy. Maybe that's why we all hate Monday, as we will all be tired as hell.
Soon it will be the end of year exam. Damn, hell is coming back to us. Really should get my shits together. Failed MANY tests this year, and it's not good. Tsk.



“有些人不值得你的时间，该放的放，该走的走”
刚刚，某人告诉了我那句话。没错，有些人真的不值得。大家都在前方，而我留着干什么？
虽然嘴上说我没有你，我只有我。但心里真的是这样的吗？其实我自己也不知道。
如果真的放下了，为什么还在乎那么多？
如果真的放下了，为什么还不敢看你的fb，也不敢看你的instagram？
如果真的放下了，为什么每次回家的时候还会看着你给我的每一样东西，想念曾经拥有的一切？
如果真的放下了，为什么需要这么辛苦的想逃避？
如果真的放下了，这一切都没必要。
我不是放下，我只是在逃避。
如果可以逃避一辈子，那多好？
可惜，不可以。
为何要挂念一个不会回头的你？
－何苦呢？－
没有你，多好？



Hi, I think you know who you are okay? Don't really want to mention it here. I'm not going to say sorry here, okay? Okay. I didn't feel that it's my fault to have someone that always wants to sleep while talking to me.
However, it's kinda my fault to say that I "don't want" you. Fine, I really don't want you. But I just can't push you away like you didn't exist right? I mean.. I will still miss you a lot and things like that. So no matter how much my brain wants to push you away, some part of me will still believe that it will be okay after all. Maybe it won't work every time, maybe this time you will really think it's over, and I don't know if it's over or not. I would still like to try even a lil bit because I appreciate you and I still believe in what you said when I was about to be gone in your life. I still believe that we will have our '4 years and counting' and I can't wait to write that sentence on my network.

Thanks for reading until here because some of my words might be kinda mean. But trust me, I didn't mean anything bad here.



It's 2 am now. Just done changing my blogskin. (:
MTDC didn't went very well today. Tested on scale. Which I sucked at. And someone's words really pissed me off. But I can't be. It's really my fault to get the thing wrong. It just immediately changed my impression about him and it only showed that what comes out from his mouth was never filtered by his brain.
Yes, I suck because of extremely lack of practice. I know. I might even be the worst player there. Thanks to him though. I'm gonna squeeze my time out for drum techniques and scales now, because I know I suck and I don't want to be a disgrace.
Okay off that crappy topic.
//
Other than that, life had been kinda good to me lately. Don't ask me why. It's just getting so much better with them around. Thanks. (:

Oh hey! I see you clicked to see my profile. ;) Since you cared to know more about me, okay let's go!
I'm born on 1st of November in the year of 1997 in Malaysia. My hometown is Penang but i'm currently in Johor, Malaysia. I now study in a school in Singapore.
I hate: feeling lonely, being ditched, bad days, people who feel way too good about themselves.
I love: JUSTIN BIEBER, photography, band, music, outings, etc (way too much).
Proud to be a belieber. <3

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